hello blog!

Its been quite some time since i've been here & i feel i should blog! Things are going good, went to lunch with the bestest people! That was lotsa fun! Haven't been out with friends in forever! And i'm so glad the weekend is right around the corner!! Cause this has been 1 stressful week!

Jon has been sick for like 2dys,but he's finally feelin better! So he's back to school tomorrow! And he's excited about that! But we ventured out to the store earlier today,with shocker,all 3 kids,which I rarely do! And my goodness,who knew how tiring that can be,i wanted to just die by the time i got home lol. Never doing that again unless I have to!

Tonight i've just spent my night watching Skins, it's interesting,kinda boring lol. But there's no new episodes of Grey's tonight,so i'm majorly bored & want my shows to come back on dangit! Idk what i'm going to do when they are over for the season!! But I guess it gives me a reason to plan more for Jon's birthday next month! I can't believe my tiny little boy is going to be 4! It can't possibly be!

My kids are making me old! It's so not fair! They are supposed to stay little forever! Especially Alex! He's supposed to stay a baby forever,i prohibt him to growing up! I like my chunky butt bein little! Minus the teething phase,that can go away somewhere else! Lol.

Amazingly,I don't have much to say right now,i'm content & doing good at the moment!

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Feeling Fine!

So oddly, I'm feeling a bit better today! In a better mood! Which is FINALLY amazing after like a week of this rutt! Today we are just hanging out! The kids are happy, at least the boys until we go get big sister! And Alex is getting more better at rolling and moving all over the place! He doesn't crawl yet, but eventually he'll get there! But he's happy rolling around! I'm trying to get him to sit up, he did for a min earlier today! And he was really proud of himself for sitting up! lol. If he didn't have such a BIG head, he could sit up! It's okay though, we still love him!

We went to Target earlier today, was looking for curtains for our bedroom, as we're sick of the sun coming through the blinds into our eye's! But we decided to hold off on curtains until we get our new bedset for our bed, so that it will match the room alot more! I'm excited to start decorating, it keeps me occupied and lookings for idea's, we really need it in this house! It's blah without anything hanging around & i don't like it! lol. But while I was there, i picked up a pair of pants & 2 shirt's for Alex! They are so cute & we're on SALE!

Got not much planned for tonight, other than I need to do dishes & steam clean the downstairs carpet tonight! Which I will probably wait to do that, when the kids are in bed! Good thing it doesn't take a long time, like it used to in the old house! That was a butt & my back is killing me! No thanks to my lovely husband deciding to knee me in the back all night last night! So now i have a bruise up the side of my back! And it does hurt to lean or bend over! Damn butthead! Other than that, i'm enjoying the good day so far! It's really nice & feels great!

Till again! :]

Blah,Blah,Blah

So here I am again. I suck at this blogging thing,but truthfully I haven't had the energy to blog. I just feel the depression & the stress dragging me down & I honestly hate the feeling,or maybe just the stupid hormones getting ahold of me since I've been taking this b/c pills. Honestly i'm hating them, they make me feel crazy lol.

I have so many people here supporting me & helping me out,but yet I feel so ALONE. I feel like none of my friends are there,like they've all vanished, when I need them the most & it hurts. I sit back & watch everyone run around,while i'm just here, no one offers to be around,or just simply ask how you're doing? I need things to take my mind off, but I try & there's nothing there.

Day in & day out, I do nothing. I actually cleaned up a bit today to get myself motivated & a few hours to keep my mind occupied. Depression is a shitty thing. I'm missing family,friends, everything that was there. But now it's just life flying by as I sit here & do nothing about it. This is a really depressing post,but I need to get it out somewhere, since no one is listening.

Sometimes I find myself thinking about everything going on & things that happened in the last few months,and it just makes me cry, as that's all I ever feel like doing now days the past week. I'm still trying to determine if it's really the stress & depression or just the stupid pills. But i think it's a combination of both,just the pills are making it worse. I wish it would just stop,I wanna be normal again.

Eh,i'll try to update again.

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Under alot of Stress

So i havent blogged in awhile, i've been under so much stress & BS these last few days that I just haven't had the energy to write it all out, and hopefully that can be understood.

So yesterday I went to the doctor about my Mirena IUD, as i've been in alot of pain from it since July, well i went in & found out that it was halfway expelled out of my cervix,lovely description,sorry lol. So they had to remove it & told me that i probably shouldn't get another one as my body didn't like the Copper T either,so i'm now going on debating which new B/C i should get now as at the moment i'm taking pills until i figure it out.

And today i recieved more court documents regarding my child support case with Samantha's biological dad, not too happy about the paperwork,but i knew trouble was going to happen anyways,it's ok though,going to keep my head up & do what i gotta do! :) Sure it makes me mad,but i'm just not gonna let it effect me the way it is doing to him. But so far he wants nothing to do with her,which is fine by me, seeing as he never cared,so what's the difference, she's loved by me & her family around her & that's all that matters. He wants to miss out on everything in her life,then so be it.

Later on in life when she's alot older & can understand,i'll tell her who he is & that he's not worth wasting time on,he didn't want to be there & doesn't now,so no point in caring. She's happy & doing great, & loves her life & her butthead brother's lol. And i'm thankful everyday that I have her,she changed me & my life completely for the better & I couldn't be more happier.

On a better not,Nick's birthday is coming up on the 28th,still gotta figure out what i'm going to get him & make him a cake! :) Time to celebrate the he's getting older,while i'm still younger! Lol. I love him to death,so it should be fun trying to get it done!

Well i think after a long hard day i'm going to go relax before bed,and yay for Friday tomorrow & a 3 day weekend!! This first week back after Winter break wiped me out,but we're finally back to schedule! Goodnight

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Slacking on Blogging

So i noticed i've been slacking on my blogging lately,so let's update! Our weekend wasn't all that eventful at all. I went to go play Bingo with a good friend of mine,Holly. It was alot of fun! We didn't win anything,but we played a good 3 hours worth! And afterwards went to Sonic & tried the new Red velvet cheesecake blast,it was yummy! Though suckered in about a bazillion calories lol.

And spent Saturday lounging around the house having a Twilight marathon to myself, i've seen them all,just wanted to watch them in order, finished both Twilight & New Moon & watching Eclipse today lol. I'm obessed i suppose, i think i wanna re read all the books again,just when I find the time to between children & housework lol. But completely dieing to see Breaking Dawn!

So,my sister got an e reader for her birthday & I saw the one she got in the store & it makes me really wanna get one! They look so cool, & i've been looking into getting one lately. I managed to play with the Nook last night when I ran out to Walmart & it's pretty spiffy!! Lol. If anyone has one,let me know what you think of it! So far my sister says it's really neat!

Well today is just loungin back again day lol. As the kiddies go back to school tomorrow,oh that dreadful school, i sure do miss the days before they were suckered into the school system, where mornings consisted of hanging out on the couch watching cartoons,but now it's up & go,go,go & get everyone rushed out the door! It's crazy how time keeps going by! I can't believe how we've already gone through our 1st week of January! It doesn't seem like it! Time needs to slow down a bit.

Well,I believe i'm gonna go sucker myself into some more Black Ops,till next time!

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Oh boy!

So i greatly dislike any word that's Training & has Potty in front of it! lol. Right now, Jonathan is in the process of potty training! It's going pretty well, but other times it's like "OMG!!!" makes your head wanna explode, boys are just crazy! lol. And i'm the even insane one for hav

ing a baby, to do it all over again, i despise potty training, it's ev

il! To the "mom i peed on the floor to the mom i'm icky", it's just a wonderland trip to FUN! I just can't wait till it's completely over, & he's a big boy!

this is what Jon thinks! lol

On another note, the kids are enjoying being back in school, but it's wearing them out so much! Jonathan came home & was watching tv for a bit & then passed out on the floor, school is wearing his butt out! But they are happy to be back in a routine & seeing all their friends again, & because they started so late in the week, tomorrow is their last day, still makes no sense why to have school for 3 days & then the weekend! I'll never understand Albuquerque Schools! And a good thing, Samantha has no homework this week, so she's happy about that!

The plus side of this week is that tomorrow is Give Parents a Break on the base! It's a program where i can put the younger 2 in the CDC & Samantha in the Youth Center, for 4 straight hours, while i obviously get to have a break! I usually just go hang around with friends or go out & do stuff, usually because my husband works Friday from 3pm-11pm, so we can't both do something together, sucks, but oh well! Tomorrow night i'm going out to play Bingo with Holly! This should be fun, i haven't been out of the house in a month & it was seriously taking a toll on me, so i'm excited! lol

So today I had fun playing with Alex! He had a blast where i was trying to get him to say "momma", "grandma" and every time he would crack up laughing because he thought it was hilarious, he's so random! And he's had a blast when we were at the school trying to get everyone to talk to him! It was adorable & it completely worked!

alex is all smiles today! :]

Off to go get dinner :] till tomorrow!

worn out!

So i haven't blogged in a few days! I apologize,i've been so tired lately, just haven't had the energy to even blog,yet alone find something to talk about lol. Other than getting ready for the kids to go back to school tomorrow! Eek,back into a routine after 3wks of vacation! I've enjoyed the break,but i'm ready for some quiet for a few hours at the most.

Our day pretty much was my husband had to work today during dayshift, first day back at work with being off for a week and a half, and now its back to work on swingshift for him tomorrow! It'll be nice to not have him sittin around on his butt lol,sorry honey but you're driving me crazy!

Tomorrow is gonna be a thrill of a morning,up at 7 & haul jon onto the bus by 8, and then get sam's lunch packed and ready to go by 9! Ahh the joys of the children being sucked back into school,but they are excited to go back! They have been aching & asking the last 3wks! Lol.

Well,i'm off to hit the hay,i'm majorly tired! Goodnight

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Late Night Blogging

So as you can tell,i'm obviously up late lol. Which has been expected with the break and all,need to start gettin my body back to being adjusted with a schedule again,these last 3 weeks have been nuts lol. But i know kiddies are eager to get back to school to see friends & have fun!

Today was sort of our "lazy day",pretty much sat around the house,cleaned up a little bit,not much really to be done,and played Monopoly online,i'm so addicted & me and the husband Nick are avid gamers,we usually play Xbox together,but lately i've been sucked into Monopoly on Pogo the past few days, & the Angry Birds game, which is highly addicting lol. I'm pretty sure everyone knows about that.

And I made chili dogs for dinner,while the children hijacked my Itouch to play Angry Birds,lol they are addicted to it also,hard to pry it from them,sometimes I think they need their own Itouch lol. Did the usual run to Wally World to get more bread for the beer dip we made,so yummy.

Then tuckered all the kiddo's into bed for the night as it was past their bedtime & they were getting crabby, and so far lounged around the house in sweats all day lol. A bit tired, but not enough to go to sleep, but yah my day was all in all,boring lol.

Alex is all tuckered out

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New Year,New Me!!

So i thought i would start a blog for the new year,ready for some changes & haven't blogged since high school lol. I have a wonderful family of 3 kids, (4 if you want to include my husband). Samantha is my bright girl,always has and always will be. Shes 5,going on 20, has a mind of her own,but of course i still love her to death. And you have Jonathan,he's my goofball,the things he says and does is just hilarious,he's a thrill seeker,and not afraid to do anything lol,and then you have Alexander,he's our little miracle & no matter how bad of a day you're having, he'll make you smile! :)

But yah,i brought my 1st of the year by steam cleaning my carpets! Exciting hm? I feel like all i ever do is clean lol, and with the kids on winter break,they have been antsy & bored alot more lately,so therefor i hardly get anything done lol. But it got done! Makes me wanna never have a house with carpet ever lol.

But my new years resolutions would probably be, the most famous,lose weight and drop all the baby fat i got going on lol, would make my self esteem alot better lol. And also, go back to school to get my diploma, and my current goal is that and joining the airforce,i've wanted to join the service since i was 14, my husband is airforce, so he opened my broad to the airforce,instead of Army! But i'm so excited with what this year has in store for us! :)

And also another thing i want to change in my life is basically taking out all the bad & bringing the good in! To not let anyone push me around & treat me like crap, people are always going to talk about you,but you gotta give them credit that they like you enough to talk about you :) 2010 brought me alot of surprises, secrets & betrayal's from people,but that's the past,so bring on the future!! :D

Cutting it short,but i'm off to make dinner!!

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